2012

I'm taking no risks this year when I usher in 2012. I'm crossing all the T's and dotting all the I's. The world is in bad enough shape without me forgetting something like black eyed peas New Year's Day and salt over the shoulder. If I had a "Blarney Stone", I would kiss it. Hopefully, by this time next year, I will be a lot lighter and have gained more movement and less pain in my arms.I have been told that if I can't see it I can't achieve it. I can both see AND taste it. Somewhere there has to be a way to stop the progression of this disease.....with every taste of success, it takes something new away. It's rather like a spoiled little kid at play saying, "If you don't play my way I will go home." I would love to say to the bully, "Go on home, I don't like you anyway." but I just would view that as giving up and something deep inside me will not let me do that. Sometimes I feel a rush of total fear when I step off a curb and my ankles pop or feel stiff. I almost scream this prayer..."Please Lord not them,too"..After both knees and one hip and now the shoulders....I am I am running out of doctors who believe I will recover. The eye opener this year was when a surgeon told me he just wouldn't try it because he didn't believe he could increase my range of movement that much...Does he not realize that anything is better than nothing? I watched a lady on Dr.Oz say she would like to die because she could no longer lift her arms and she was in a wheelchair. Well my surgery is the last of March and I BELIEVE even though the thought of recovery time makes me sick at my stomach. I look at it this way, though. If God hadn't wanted me to try it, He would not have presented it to me.....This has turned into something far more serious than I wanted. I KNOW that 2012 will be an eye opener and a cure will be closer than ever before. Years ago there was no such thing as a reverse cup shoulder replacement. Now that is the thing for PD patients...so off I go to "meet the wizard, the wonderful wizard of OZ" Have a wonderful New Year and may you be ever so blessed in many ways and please don't forget to give thanks to your creator...love ya....Pokie

A PASSION THAT IS UNMATCHED.....

I have spent some time lately spinning my wheels. Be it depression or fatigue, who knows, but it is time for me to get over it and go back to what I love most and that is being with people who are associated with Parkinson's or have it. The truly best times in my life have been in the past three years after I decided to write my thoughts down and commit them to the Internet for all to read. I went full force for all that time and loved it but did not address the idea that sooner or later I would run out of steam and crash. Well I did just that in May and can say I have never been so tired in all my life BUT I have slept and regrouped my meds and visited many doctors. All in all it was the rest I needed most and next was the fact I was extremely over medicated. Once the fog cleared and I stopped sleeping way too many hours a day, things begin to shine again. I really believed my life was ending by God's will. If that was the case I was going to go along with it but needless to say he must have more plans for me. Daily offers pour in and help on how to get what I do write out to the general public.....I have always said that "Today With Pokie" was from my heart and "Coffee With Pokie" was for laughs and Journey to 2009 was commercial. I think that still applies but somehow I need to consolidate so a person can go to one place and find me not three or four......We will see what I come up with in the on coming months but needless to say I am doing well and back with a "PASSION" THAT IS UNMATCHED......see you later love Pokie