It's Been Too Long

It's Been a month and this is my favorite spot to vent.  Though all readers seem to flow toward http://justmeantiques.blogspot.com , this is where I like to play and experiment. Everyone needs a laugh once in a while and a need for a good memory to flash through our head is always there.  I have run the gambit on emotions today from child like glee to tears.  I presume this is normal for 63 year old at Christmas Time, especially one with my malfunctions. My Christmas has been full and still it grows.  Today is only Christmas Eve.  I have always turned all the lights out except the Christmas tree and put on Christmas music and read the Christmas story and traveled to Bethehem in my mind and then after twelve started my cooking for Christmas Day.  The first part will be the same but I no longer am in charge of dinner and my packages are wrapped.  There are no kids in the house and it is really quiet.  The traditional divinity I make my son has come from Swiss Colony instead as well as finger cakes and bonbons. I am not sad in any way because the stress is completely off and I would say passed on to my children now grown with their own families.  It was time for me to pass the fancy dishes and hidden recipes on to the next generation.  The only one really missing out is my Mother who lives with me and early Alzehimers.  She said this evening, "This just doesn't seem like Christmas" and went quietly to bed very early.  I bet at 84 , and being very confused, Christmas does loose it's punch.  I hope I never think of Jesus's birthday as just another day.....It seems I live all year to share all I can with as many as I can and love it. This year I am going to make it a point to celebrate his birthday as many days as I can, be it March, July or December....The world needs hugs and caring right now...I fear much more than they are telling us....I pay you have a very Merry Christmas or what ever Holiday you call it and you do something to make you smile with a memory of the past....and figure what you want to do in the coming year to spead God's light to all corners of the world for peace....love Pokie